心声

From the first day I knew you, I've liked you and subsequently, after knowing you more, fallen in love with you. Yes, in the past there was a period of time where I wanted to woo you so that you will be my girlfriend eventually.

But now, things have changed. Right now, all the things that I do are just for one purpose, and that is for you to be happy. And I mean happy from the bottom of your heart, not just the surface. I've been a clown for too long just to make people happy, and it made me look stupid, childish, irresponsible. I'm changing now, to become a man. One that is capable of taking care of you and making the important decisions (not where to eat, where to shop etc.) when needed.

Right now, the things that you're going through, it's terrible. You're choosing not to tell me anything, and I accept that. But it's because of this, I can't do anything at all except to be there when you need someone. Give me the chance to care for you, love you, protect you, and take care of you. It really hurts me so much to see you in such a state.

Many people might think that I'm just bullshit-ting, and that I'm doing whatever I'm doing just to get you to be my girlfriend. But right here, I'm announcing to the world that it's all wrong. 我敢发誓. Even if in the days to come, you get to know someone else, and you start to believe and fall in love again, and become the Audrey that I used to know, it's enough for me.

Am I stupid? Maybe.

Is it worth it? Definitely.

Happenings

A lot of things have been happening around my life recently, and it ain't good. Thankfully, I found a song that happens to describe everything that I want to say.

Backstreet Boys - I'll Never Break Your Heart
Baby I know your hurting
Right now you feel like you could never love again
Now all I ask is for a chance
To prove that I love you

From the first day
That I saw your smiling face
Honey, I knew that we would be together forever
Ooh when I asked you out
You said no but I found out
Darling that you'd been hurt
You felt that you'd never love again

I deserve a try honey just once
Give me a chance and I'll prove this all wrong
You walked in you were so quick to judge
But honey he's nothing like me

I'll never break your heart
I'lll never make you cry
I'd rather die than live without you
I'll give you all of me
Honey that's no lie

As time goes by you will get to know me
A little more better
Girl that's the way love goes

And I know you're afraid
To let your feelings show
And I understand
But girl it's time to let go

I deserve a try honey just once
Give me a chance and I'll prove this all wrong
You walked in you were so quick to judge
But honey he's nothing like me
Darling why can't you see

No way, no how
I'll make you cry


It hurts to see you like this, and yet there's nothing I can do except to be by your side when you need someone to talk to, or a shoulder to cry on. Be strong. You have many friends supporting you. And me.

Sexy?

Get Your Sexy Name

Tired

Been catching up on my sleep debts. I mean, who sleeps only 1 hour in 80 hours?

Late nights are taking a toll on me. Pimple outbreaks man! OMG! I look ugly!

Start of a new year = Time to chiong in my studies. I find that I don't have much time left in doing my projects and stuff. But things are starting to look brighter, after being in doubts over whether is my project feasible and useful. Apparently many secondary school teachers need a system like the one I proposed in my final year project. Now it's time to develop it.

And yes, I'm serious people. I AM STUDYING! Who says I don't need to study?


我会做一个永远在你身边的男人，无论任何风风雨雨。

Taking A Look Back At 2008

2 more days before the end of 2008, and I guess it's time that I take a look back and see what has happened for the past 363 days.

January 15th, 2008
The death of my grandmother. Till now, it still affects me greatly. I still miss her alot. She has been taking care of me and protecting me ever since I was a toddler, and yet there was nothing I could do when she suddenly fell into a coma on 15th November 2007, and did not wake up ever since. 奶奶，我爱你.


March 2008
The purchase of our family's 1st car. Was meant to buy it so that I could fetch my grandmother around, but sadly it was too late.


April 4th, 2008
The day my girlfriend of 4 years broke up with me. It hurts, and it still does. But I'm happy for her right now, that she has moved on and is now very happy with another guy. I wish u 2 all the best =)


September 2008
The day I got my results has got to be the best day for me this year. Getting straight As for my year 2 was unexpected, especially when the breakup with my ex-girlfriend came when I was preparing for my exams. I totally did not study for the exams, and I was super lucky. Probably my grandmother was behind all these haha.

September is also the month where I got to know my current clique: Audrey, Huibin, Pamela, Jason, Eve, Faith, Vincent, Jeremy, Tiffany, No.3, and so many more. I love you guys, really.


My wish for 2009:
- To be able to complete my studies smoothly, and get a 1st class honours in the process.
- That our clique can still stay together for many years.


Early Goodbye, 2008.
Early Hello, 2009.

Merry Xmas!

Been busy the past week for the Christmas performance at Singapore Arts Museum. Was fun! Of course, there's always room for improvement. Good job, guys!

Early Merry Christmas to all!

My wishlist:
- Friends and family to be happy and healthy!
- Get good grades for my final year
- A new pair of shoes
- A new bag
- Love
- World peace


=D


O.S: Ba la ba la ba la ba la ba la .. I'm surviving :)

Are You Happy?

Got this from a magazine.

1. 每天为自己做一件开心的事
Do something happy for yourself everyday

2. 每天至少大笑一次
Laugh heartily at least once everyday

3. 每天做一件好事
Do something good everyday

4. 每天最少向陌生人打招呼或微笑一次
Say hi or smile to a stranger at least once everyday

5. 每周和喜欢的人聊天，至少1小时
Chat with the person you like for at least 1 hour every week

6. 运动。每周3次，每次30分钟
Exercise thrice weekly, 30 minutes each time

7. 和很久没有联络的朋友见面
Meet up with long lost friends

8. 栽种植物
Grow plants

9. 睡前回想5件让你觉得感恩的事情
Before you sleep, think of 5 things that you feel is worthy of thanksgiving

10. 减少看电视的时间
Reduce the time you spent in front of the TV


So, are you happy?