不充实的生活

最近真的忙得不可开交。 练歌，表演，做工，教课。

我忽然间想了一想，觉得她应该会这么说： “为什么你要等到我们分开了，你才开始做这些事呢？为什么我们在一起的时候你没做这些事呢？如果你有做，那事情就会完全不同了。”

我觉得这是一个很多人会犯的错。很多人会因为有了另一半，而觉得太过满足。

这正是我犯的一个错。大错特错。

跟她在一起的时候，终是觉得其他的事情根本就不重要，无论是工作或读书。

虽然这没有影响到我的成绩，但是却使她和她的家人觉得我是一个很懒散的人，是一个没有上进心的人，是一个不能依靠的男人。

现在的我变了。

我现在只想把我的书念好，为了不辜负我死去的奶奶的期望。毕业后，找一份工作，存了钱以及了解市场的需要过后，再开一间小公司，自己当老板。

儿女私情的东西，我不想再管了。如果她愿意回到我的身边，那是最好的。要不然，就把钱花在自己以及我姑姑和姑丈的身上。

我打算让天来决定此事。

至于我对她的爱，是永远都不会变的。

那一天的到来之前，无论我多忙，我都会觉得我的生活很不充实。

因为没有她。

Charity Performance

The charity performance on Wednesday was fun! And it was a last minute decision to sing live! Haha, we were all so happy to hear that as 对嘴 is really very tough.

Guess it was a good experience for all of us, especially Neo, who got to sing live with Ric from Dreamz FM. So jealous :(

P.S. Thanks Minhui, for that oversized + crumped T-shirt haha



All happy and satisfied!

Next stop: White Tangerine Cafe at Kovan!

我撞车了

If there was anyone who was caught in a jam at the PIE towards Changi Airport at about 8.30pm to 9.30pm on Friday, it's because of a 7 car chain collision at the extreme right lane.

I was the 7th car.

3 to 10 seconds before the collision, I was in the middle lane. If I had stayed in the middle lane, I'd have been fine. But unluckily, I chose to change to the extreme right lane. And what happened next was this: bang, bang, bang, screeching sound, brake lights of the taxi in front, I tried to swerve left to the middle lane, failed, and bang. I hit the left rear of the taxi, and my front right is damaged. Felt damn fucked up.

No. I wasn't speeding. I was travelling at 80km/h.

No. I wasn't tailgating. I was about 1 car length away.

Luckily, those people who were all caught in the accident were fine. Many came over and told me what to do and what to say in order to protect myself, as the law always make the last guy in a chain collision the culprit.

After that, all went to the TP headquarters for taking of statements. The worst thing was that when I went in, the investigating officer told me that I might be fined SGD200 and have 6 points deducted. He didn't tell me the reason why, but the tow truck guy who sent me there explained to me that it's considered reckless driving for being the last guy. Argh!


On Saturday, had to go to Borneo Motors to file an accident report. As the person insured is my uncle, who happens to be in Japan and is uncontactable, they told me that I had to wait until my uncle comes back and sign the form before they can start to repair the car, irregardless of how long he is going to be away. I was like, WTF! Luckily, my auntie managed to complain and psycho them to let her sign on my uncle's behalf.

After that, went down to Guillemard Road to collect our replacement car provided by the insurance. We were supposed to take the Vios, but then because we were in a rush and the guy was taking his own sweet time to drive the Vios back, we had to take the Hyundai Matrix.

Damn bloody wrong choice.

I've only been driving it for 2 days, half the petrol is gone, and it was full when I collected it.


And amazingly, until now, my auntie didn't ask me if I suffered any injuries. Over the phone when the accident happened, she asked me 2 questions.

First question: "You were speeding, right?!"

Second question: "How's the car now?"

The only people who said that the car is not as important as my safety are my friends. Interesting eh?

I bet when my uncle comes home, he'll say the exact same thing as my auntie. Suspect that I was speeding, and ask what's the damage to the car like. He won't be asking if I suffered any injuries.

He should be back on Thursday. It's gonna be judgement day for me. I might even be grounded and not be allowed to drive in the future. Damn.

Jam 蕭敬騰

2008年最期待的聲音蕭敬騰

不要全世界，只要你聽見他的歌!

李偲菘、李偉嵩、馬玉芬、陳偉、曹格、F.I.R./阿沁、五月天/阿信、蘇打綠/青峰、小宇、陳鎮川、鄔裕康 華語樂壇重量級音樂人聯手打造


-專輯收錄「收藏」「原諒我」「王子的新衣」等10+1首必備入手完全K歌
-獨家珍藏「一輩子存在」「海芋戀」2首蕭敬騰自創曲
-專輯內附「收藏蕭敬騰集點貼紙x1」

一個足以穿透一切東西且富有深切情感的聲音，蕭敬騰。

【收藏】
首張同名專輯裡敬騰的第一波主打【收藏】，是由李偉菘老師作曲，陳鎮川老師作詞。從極具生命力的聲音開啟整首歌及整張專輯，進入了全新的蕭敬騰，英式搖滾的蕭敬騰，內容傳達蕭敬騰從小到大，不論是開心還是悲傷，所有的心情故事都濃縮珍藏在詞曲當中，讓大家聽了也能感受他的喜怒哀樂。

【原諒我】
【原諒我】，是同門師兄FIR的 阿沁 為蕭敬騰精心打造的情歌。流暢的弦律線條帶出副歌的（原諒我，原諒我不成熟），也是用蕭敬騰的口吻去寫出這種說不出口的情感，令人了解他沈默但卻有豐富情感的一面，是一首非常好聽，而且耐聽的情歌。

【王子的新衣】
【王子的新衣】，是一首有爆炸力的美式抒情搖滾，其中直接寫出他的想法，更可以看到在他沈默的外表有著另一種叛逆的個性；整首歌很有爆發力及渲染力。

【奮不顧身】
接下來一首動人的情歌【奮不顧身】，是由曹格作曲，直接的情感，動人的聲線，副歌（我用我的生命愛你，不讓尖銳的世界傷害你），寫出奮不顧身愛一個人的情感。具有戲劇性效果的編曲，讓聽的人的情緒隨著他的聲音而上下起伏。

【疼愛】
五月天阿信也為蕭敬騰量身打造【疼愛】，一首中版的輕快歌曲，簡單的弦律，輕快的節奏，舒服的聲音，讓人有種紓壓的感覺。

【活著】
新銳創作歌手 小宇同學，也為蕭敬騰寫了一首傳唱度高、渲染力十足的金屬搖滾快歌【活著】，副歌部份如同情緒宣洩般的張力，展現出敬騰歌聲的爆發力。歌詞內容則是寫給支持他的歌迷朋友們。

【多希望你在】
這張專輯眾多音樂人共同參與。這次更邀請到了蘇打綠的吳青峰為敬騰寫一首很好聽的氣質抒情悲歌【多希望你在】。像詩一般的歌詞，也為蕭敬騰的聲音帶來優雅的氣息，是值得一聽再聽的好歌；敬騰在這首歌裡也嚐試了運用假音唱法，更讓人再認識了他聲音的可塑性。

【我在哭】
李偲菘老師為蕭敬騰寫了一首英式抒情歌【我在哭】，略為成熟的弦律意外地適合蕭敬騰的聲線，在一段一段的舖陳下，情緒也進入了他的領域。邊聽著這首歌，會邊想要和他一起愛，一起哭。

【Blues】
陳偉老師也為蕭敬騰打造了一首具速度感的搖滾快歌【Blues】，是整張專輯中最快的一首歌，狂放的曲風，也讓人見識到了蕭敬騰唱快歌的功力。

【一輩子存在】
這首是蕭敬騰自己的創作，展現了他除了好歌喉之外的另一種創作才華。一首具有情感醞釀的抒情歌【一輩子存在】，讓人除了認識他的聲音更認識了他的內心世界，帶有一點Gasple味道的副歌，深情而具深度的Vocal，足以打動無數人的心。

【bonus track：海芋戀】
【海芋戀】這首也是蕭敬騰的創作歌曲。中版而青春洋溢的弦律，呈現出來的也正是21歲的他的內心世界。外表看似沈穩冷靜，其實私底下還是個活潑的大男孩。當初因為比賽而創作的海芋戀，早已在網路上流傳許久，這一次在同名專輯裡特別加入這首當作bonus track，讓喜愛敬騰的歌迷們能夠好好珍藏！

01. 收藏
02. 王子的新衣
03. 原諒我
04. 奮不顧身
05. 疼愛
06. 多希望妳在
07. 活著
08. 一輩子存在
09. 我在哭
10. Blues
11. 海芋戀


太好听了！！！！！

Performances!

Heard from my S.T.A.R program instructor that from July onwards, we will be performing at cafes regularly! So exciting! I've always wanted to perform for people, but I never had the chance to do so. Now that I have this opportunity, I have to make sure that my voice is in tip-top condition. And that means no more 麻辣火锅 :(

Nothing much happened these few days, except that my auntie and uncle went to Castle Green at Yio Chu Kang to view 3 flats, and they fell in love with 1 of them. Apparently, they are already checking out some details regarding CPF with a friend of my auntie, who happens to be the agent who is keeping a lookout for potential buyers of our flat.

I already have plans on how to renovate my new room! Haha! New bed, LCD TV mounted on wall with SCV, theatre system, PS3, neatly packed wardrobe with many old clothes donated to charity, huge bookshelf for all my studying materials, long study table with my desktop, iMac (planning to buy one), and my laptop side by side, all connected by a linksys router.

But it's only a 3 room condo, about 1156 square feet, which is 500 square feet smaller than my current. That's 1/3 of my current flat gone! But then again, with only 3 people and 2 dogs, we don't need a big house anymore. Moreover, I'll eventually get married and move out. So getting a condo for them is quite right, in a sense that when they retire, they can sell it for a good price and then they will probably emigrate to Australia for retirement.

I'm really thankful to my auntie and uncle for bringing me up when my father passed away when I was just 3 years old. They gave up the idea of having their own children, and made me theirs. How great is that! The only thing that I can do now is to make sure that I get a good certificate (probably Masters), get a good job with good pay, give them monthly allowance (although they won't need it at all), and make sure that they stay healthy.

Thank you, 姑姑, 姑丈.

Pictures Of Concert

Only a few pictures. And they're almost the same. Haha. The reason why there isn't any picture of me with any of the artistes, it's because I don't like taking pictures. Except for big group photos.


Members of the S.T.A.R program (Take 1)
Top (L to R): Alex, Zhang Yan, Wenbin, Neo
Bottom (L to R): Me, Esther, Meijun



Members of the S.T.A.R program (Take 2). I look ugly in here.



Members of the S.T.A.R program (Take 3). Addition: Jake, the youngest of us all. The one who said I looked retard in this picture. I'll kill you for this, Jake!



Two of the instructors in the school, Caleb and Minhui. This picture is going to scare potential students away. Without any doubt.



全家幅 + Ruth, the music director of the concert. Her keyboard skills is .. just absolutely fantastic.

Nice

Friday
Went to fetch Jake down to town to meet up with Fiona and Alex, all students of the S.T.A.R program in Echo Music. First time meeting Fiona, and Neo's right. It is easy to make friends with people who have the same interest, in our case music. Don't know why, but Alex became Jake's fashion consultant. But then again, with Alex being the model, it's easy for him to give comments isn't it?

After following them to HMV to get a top for Jake, I found out that I really need to buy new clothes! All my clothes are old and boring. But then again, where to get the money? :(


Saturday
Woke up feeling really terrible, and vomited at least 3 times before leaving to Suntec to work in the CNA seminar. It felt great to see old friends from CNA again, and I really enjoy working in such seminars as the stage manager. Liaising with the audio guy in the control room, with the MC from CNA, with Gillian, and with the sponsors. Gillian even commented that the sponsor from Great Eastern loves me. Haha. Hope I'll have the opportunity to work with them again, as it's been great fun working there with them.

After the seminar ended, I had to run to Raffles Hotel to join the Echo guys backstage for 玖健's concert. This was the first time I'm backstage at a major concert for an artiste, and I must say that the experience is cool. Not only that, it's also amazing to find out that after 20 years, 玖健 still sounds bloody good. And his songs are nice too!

The seminar ended late, and the funny thing was that I had to sit in one of the guy's car, and get to Suntec to get my car in the carpark. I had a complimentary ticket which ends at 11.59 pm and the time was already 11.45 pm. I was basically running down the ramp and all the way to the other end of the carpark to get my car. Time when I exited: 11.53pm. Bloody lucky. Else, the parking would have cost me $14. Bloody funny :)

The "VROOM-VROOM" is unforgettable!


Today
Cam-whoring session after the end of 玖健's concert. Saw many artistes gathering together, and Minhui says she'll introduce 梦飞船 to me as they are all friends! Yipee! Will post pictures when I get all of them from everyone!

Steamboat at Bugis was great, and we all had great time suan-ing Jake, didn't we? Too bad Jake, who asks you to be the youngest and the one with the scandal?

It's great knowing all the people from the S.T.A.R program! :)


Tomorrow
Hair-trimming session, buying of white top at Bugis Village, and then a makeup photoshoot for me for the S.T.A.R program! I must look good!

Damn

Feeling too bloody sick and weak to even walk down to my kitchen. Had to apologise to the company and hoped for another interview later this week, when I get better. Why am I sick, of all times, now!?

A friend of mine told me to have hope, and introduced me this song

Mariah Carey - I Still Believe

You look in my eyes and I get emotional inside
I know it’s crazy, but you still can touch my heart
And after all this time you think that I wouldn’t feel the same
But time melts into nothing, and nothing's changed

I still believe
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves
In love again

I had a dream
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves
In love again

Each day of my life, I’m filled with all the joy I could find
You know that I, I'm not the desperate type
If there’s one spark of hope left in my grasp, I'm holding it with both hands
It’s worth the risk of burning, to have a second chance

No, no, no, no, no, no, I need you, baby
I still believe that we can be together, no…
If we believe that true love never has to end
Then we must know that we will love again, Mmm..

I still believe
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves
In love again (Oh, baby, yeah)

I had a dream
You and me
Will find ourselves
In love again

I still believe (Ooh, baby, I do)
Someday you and me (Just give me one more try)
In love again

I had a dream (I miss your love)
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves
In love again

I still believe
Someday you and me (will find ourselves in love...)

Another Interview!

This is the one I'm looking for!

Interview for Java Programmer tomorrow at 5pm! With a chance for a long term contract after graduation!

If I am able to get in to this one, it'll be a good chance for me to get real experience in this industry. Not only that, it's also a test for me as to whether I'm good enough to stay.

*Prays*