Taking A Look Back At 2008

2 more days before the end of 2008, and I guess it's time that I take a look back and see what has happened for the past 363 days.

January 15th, 2008
The death of my grandmother. Till now, it still affects me greatly. I still miss her alot. She has been taking care of me and protecting me ever since I was a toddler, and yet there was nothing I could do when she suddenly fell into a coma on 15th November 2007, and did not wake up ever since. 奶奶，我爱你.


March 2008
The purchase of our family's 1st car. Was meant to buy it so that I could fetch my grandmother around, but sadly it was too late.


April 4th, 2008
The day my girlfriend of 4 years broke up with me. It hurts, and it still does. But I'm happy for her right now, that she has moved on and is now very happy with another guy. I wish u 2 all the best =)


September 2008
The day I got my results has got to be the best day for me this year. Getting straight As for my year 2 was unexpected, especially when the breakup with my ex-girlfriend came when I was preparing for my exams. I totally did not study for the exams, and I was super lucky. Probably my grandmother was behind all these haha.

September is also the month where I got to know my current clique: Audrey, Huibin, Pamela, Jason, Eve, Faith, Vincent, Jeremy, Tiffany, No.3, and so many more. I love you guys, really.


My wish for 2009:
- To be able to complete my studies smoothly, and get a 1st class honours in the process.
- That our clique can still stay together for many years.


Early Goodbye, 2008.
Early Hello, 2009.

Merry Xmas!

Been busy the past week for the Christmas performance at Singapore Arts Museum. Was fun! Of course, there's always room for improvement. Good job, guys!

Early Merry Christmas to all!

My wishlist:
- Friends and family to be happy and healthy!
- Get good grades for my final year
- A new pair of shoes
- A new bag
- Love
- World peace


=D


O.S: Ba la ba la ba la ba la ba la .. I'm surviving :)

Are You Happy?

Got this from a magazine.

1. 每天为自己做一件开心的事
Do something happy for yourself everyday

2. 每天至少大笑一次
Laugh heartily at least once everyday

3. 每天做一件好事
Do something good everyday

4. 每天最少向陌生人打招呼或微笑一次
Say hi or smile to a stranger at least once everyday

5. 每周和喜欢的人聊天，至少1小时
Chat with the person you like for at least 1 hour every week

6. 运动。每周3次，每次30分钟
Exercise thrice weekly, 30 minutes each time

7. 和很久没有联络的朋友见面
Meet up with long lost friends

8. 栽种植物
Grow plants

9. 睡前回想5件让你觉得感恩的事情
Before you sleep, think of 5 things that you feel is worthy of thanksgiving

10. 减少看电视的时间
Reduce the time you spent in front of the TV


So, are you happy?

Jubeat

A new music game from Japan. Very addictive!

Then again, is it because of the game itself that's why I'm addicted to it? Or is it that I'm just trying to find something to distract me from everything that's going on right now?

Whatever it is, try the game!

被愛是幸福 愛人是痛苦

你太美 愛你要先學會心碎
我害怕沒有你　日子失去光輝
專心的愛一個人對不對
愛情的崎嶇讓人覺得好累

你愛過誰　為誰流過淚
為他說過但從未實現的諾言
有沒有後悔　想不想說抱歉
如果有機會願不願重來一回

被愛是幸福　愛人是痛苦
我連在你面前想哭　都不會
被愛是幸福　愛人是痛苦
我已經選擇愛你這條路

你愛過誰　為誰流過淚
為他說過但從未實現的諾言
有沒有後悔　想不想說抱歉
如果有機會願不願重來一回

被愛是幸福　愛人是痛苦
我連在你面前想哭　都不會
被愛是幸福　愛人是痛苦
我已經選擇愛你這條路

被愛是幸福　愛人是痛苦
我連在你面前想哭　都沒有淚
被愛是幸福　愛人是痛苦
我已經選擇愛你只付出

Letting It All Out

I'm really happy for you, that you have finally found someone that you truly love and vice versa. But at the same time, 我的心好酸，好痛. Now, I'm gonna be like the male lead actor in “我的野蛮女友”.


- Do not drive too fast. She will hyperventilate.
- If she does, stop by the road shoulder, open all windows, and let her breathe slowly before driving off again.
- She loves cockles, brocolli, the steamboat at Golden Mile Tower, the japanese food at Cuppage, the duck noodles near her place, the Sakae Teppanyaki outlet at Cineleisure (with Will as the chef), belachan chilli, seaweed as it is, cheese, instant noodles with lots of Marmite, red roses, her dogs.
- She doesn't like sour stuff, green chilli, seaweed in soup, any type of chocolate, speeding.
- She wants a red Nintendo DS lite. Buy one for her. I gave away the one I bought for her.
- If she's in a bad mood and she hang up on you, don't get angry. She'll be fine after it's settled.
- Do not talk about the incident the next day onwards.
- If you buy Macdonalds for her, make sure you have tomato sauce and mayonnaise. Upsize the fries.
- She doesn't really drink soft drinks, except for Coke. Even that, she doesn't drink it all the time.
- She likes green tea. From either Heaven & Earth or Pokka.
- Do not stop her from drinking when she's high.
- When she's drunk, make sure she drinks water before she goes to sleep, and drinks water when she wakes up.
- If she doesn't, force her to. She doesn't have a habit of drinking water. Make sure she does from now onwards.
- Do that after she smokes 2 sticks of cigarettes when she wakes up.
- She smokes Viceroy Menthol. Don't buy light.
- Do not try to wake her up from her sleep.
- If you really need to, you will get scolded.
- But don't worry, she won't remember a thing.
- If she's cold, hug her.
- Sing for her. She likes it.
- Tell her that she's pretty everyday.
- Help her choose her clothes and her shoes when she's changing.
- Go learn bedtime stories. She likes it.


I'm going to miss all that we had.

I still love you.

I guess it's time for me to learn how to let go.

But I really don't want to.

Damn.

I Feel Stupid

Got an SMS saying that I've got 2 unheard voice messages.

Listened to it, and one of it was from Minhui 老师, asking me to call her back at her HP.

I called, and she didn't answer.

5 minutes later, she called back.

老师: Hello Sky, 你找我啊？

我： Huh? 不是你打给我，然后留了voicemail meh?

老师： 哇，那是很久以前了喔.

我： Ooops 哈哈哈哈 Ok. Bye Bye

I feel stupid.

累了

真的累了

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睡觉咯！！！！！

P.S.　对不起，我知道。这个post很无聊。哈哈

I Hate

I hate staying at my grandma's house. Big time.

All my things get misplaced as the maid packs the room every single day, and I hate people to mess with my things. Now my entire stack of notes got lost, and even she herself doesn't know where she kept it. Fuck.

Russell Peters

You can never get sick of his jokes. I love this guy man.

老了

24岁了

真的老了

You Asked Me

You once asked me why do I love you.


I love the way you talk.
I love the way you smile and laugh.
I love the way you play your PSP and scold vulgarities at the monsters.
I love the way you call me and tell me you're stuck, in a game. =D
I love the way you sing.
I love the way you 撒娇.
I love the way you ask me not to drive too fast in the car (except the pinching =p).
I love the way you call me Darling.
I love the way you eat.
I love the way you hold my hand.
I love the way you get drunk and mumble nonsense. =p
I love the way you kiss me.
I love your hair.
I love your lips.
I love your smell.
I love your character.
I love your personality.
I love the way you look.


So basically, with 1% of the reasons why I love you listed above, there's just one conclusion:


I love everything about you, Audrey Wee.

How I Wish ...

That I could be the one taking care of you whenever you are in need ...
That I could be the first person you see when you wake up ...
That I could be the first person you think of if you do not see me in the morning when you wake up ...


I love you more than anyone else in this world do.

I Want A Mic Like This

Someone buy me this mic please? Please??

To Those Who Wants To Make Me Drunk On My Bday

Too bad.

Due to financial constraints, I will not be celebrating my birthday anymore.


P.S. No. 3, thanks for your early gift. I love the wallet you gave me =)

Madagascar 2

This has got to be the best movie this year. It's so damn hilarious, and at the same time touching.

P.S. For those who haven't watch the movie, please refrain from reading this post, as it will contain lots and lots of spoilers.


Hilarious:
- The part where the penguin captain announcned, "Gentlemen, I have good news and bad news. Good news, we're landing. Bad news, we're crash landing."
- The part where Alex danced infront of the New Yorkers to make them drop their weapons, and Alex's father joined in the dance. Synchronized ballet =)
- The hat that Alex had to wear

Touching:
The one part that was the most touching was where Melman confessed to Gloria.


Suddenly, I thought of something weird. What happens if an Ah Beng confessed to an Ah Lian the way Melman did to Gloria?

"Oei, Ah Lian, you know ah, last time limbeh sick and sick, machiam like going to die ah, you know how limbeh survive or not? Not because of the medicine I eat you know! Also not because I go and see doctor hor. You know why or not? It's because of you hor! Limbeh because think of you all the time ah, then can lun until now lor! If not, long time ago limbeh die liao ah!"


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So un-romantic.

Scared The Shit Out Of Me

Got caught earlier at a road block near the speed camera after Lentor Avenue. Had to follow the TP back to the TP HQ at Ubi, and have another test with the breathalyser.

At the TP HQ, one young malay chap was in charged of getting my ID verified. He was telling me, "Bro what time did you drink man?" I then told him that I drank about 2 hours ago. He then advised me, "Bro, next time, if you want to drink and drive, wait for at least 5 hours after your last glass before you drive off. If not, surely fail one." Of course, this conversation was held without no one around within a 50m radius.

In case you guys don't know, the passing mark for the breathalyser test is 35ug/100ml. If you get 36 and above, you are considered a failure, and you will have to ask your family members to come and bail you out, and at the same time wait for a date to go to court for your sentence. If you get 35 and below, you pass and you are able to leave immediately.

Luckily for me, I got 32ug/100ml, barely passing the test. Back into the holding room, when I was about to leave, all of them told me to be careful, and that I will not be so lucky the next time round, and that they knew that I drank more than what I stated in the statement, but they won't pursue further because I passed.




Darling, don't be sorry. It's just my luck. You could never have predicted that there will be a road block on the way too. Don't need to feel sorry ok? =)

Misunderstood

That's all I can say.

It's not what you thought I meant.

Poster Boy

Feels weird to see myself as the "poster boy" of a program on a website.

Do I look like myself in the picture?

P.S. This picture was taken quite awhile ago, when I had my hair =( Bloody reservist

Countdown

10 Courseworks. 1 Final Year Project. Good job ~

CIS 311 Coursework 1
CIS 311 Coursework 2
CIS 315 Coursework 1
CIS 315 Coursework 2
CIS 317 Coursework 1
CIS 317 Coursework 2
CIS 323 Coursework 1
CIS 323 Coursework 2
CIS 326 Coursework 1
CIS 326 Coursework 2


8 more. Great. It's the final lap! Come on!

School

After missing school for 3 weeks, I'm finally back! So many of my classmates and my lecturer are saying that it's been a long time since they last saw me. My lecturer even wondered if I was in the correct class! Geez.

Suddenly, I wonder to myself. Am I capable of achieving what I want? Am I able to catch up after missing so many lessons?

I certainly hope so.

For now, life's just fine.

Meal @ Jack's Place

Went for lunch-cum-dinner yesterday at Jack's Place @ Marina Square with Darling, and I must say it's good!

Except for the service though.

Seriously, they are short handed. Either that, or their staff are just lazy and doing nothing but watch the chef cook in the kitchen.

Meals with Darling recently have been sweet and fun, accompanied with lots of laughter and smiles. I love such feelings =)


That's why I love her =D


Oh, and please go to this link http://apps.facebook.com/virtualcity/587278315/default.aspx, and help me by adding citizens to my city. Daily :)

Do Not ..

Do not ever stay at an elderly estate, example Whampoa.

The elderly people all wake up really early, and as they have hearing difficulties, they speak to each other as though they're shouting. And it makes things worse that my Ah Ma's house is on the 4th storey, and there is a playground just right outside my window, and kids LOVE to scream.

Therefore, from 8am onwards, the noise level increases gradually, and it reaches maximum level at 10am or 11am, especially on a Sunday.


I need sleep.

Dead

I got bitten by a 300-year-old vampire tonight.

I'm dead meat for sure.

Someone ...

Save me ...

Birthday Wishlist

Dear whoever-it-may-concern, I wish for ...

1. A new wallet
2. A new bag from Zinc (Huibin knows which one)
3. A new pair of shoes

OMG, my wishes are soooo simple and pure. Haha.

Sadly, the last one that I'm hoping for, no one can ever give me that.

4. Love. From someone.


This birthday sucks.

Hate + 原谅我

I hate having fever. The body aches are killing me.

Update: This is crazy. I ate 2 panadols, I vomitted them out within 2 minutes, and yet I'm feeling better. Haha.

Update 2: I was wrong. I'm feeling terrible now. Last check: 39.4 deg celsius. Argh I hate this


原谅我 - 萧敬腾

请不要分了以後　还记得亲吻过的承诺
你的永久已不属於我
默默低头　那时我很多话哽在喉咙

你的笑　你的快乐　不是我爱太多　想太多
我能感受他比我适合
爱放了手　我伪装冷漠　比你先说分手

请原谅我　原谅我不成熟
不爱你是藉口　好让你离开我
请原谅我　好想自私将你占有
一个寂寞就给我承受　换你过更好的生活

请不要分了以後　还记得亲吻过的承诺
你的永久已不属於我
默默低头　那时我很多话哽在喉咙

你的笑　你的快乐　不是我爱太多　想太多
我能感受他比我适合
爱放了手　我伪装冷漠　比你先说分手

请原谅我　原谅我不成熟
不爱你是藉口　好让你离开我
请原谅我　好想自私将你占有
一个寂寞就给我承受　换你过更好的生活

爱过恨过哭过也笑过　
亲吻过你的脆弱　其实我比谁都要懦弱

原谅我　必须假装爱错
别让时间倒流　我怕说不出口
原谅我　没有解释太多心痛
别无所求　彻底忘了我　爱原来要舍得

我难过　我才懂

It's Over!

I completed my 1st ICT!

Honestly, it wasn't as tough as I expected it to be, but it sure is tiring. Hope to see my new found friends next time round :)


I hate those people who arranges for something, and calls the shots for everything as though they are the king. Yesterday, we asked these 2 person to play mahjong at 11, and they said they can't. Soon after, they contacted us again and asked if we can play at 2+. Jason, me and darling then decided that since it's 2+, why not 330 so that darling can join us too. The 2 of them said it's a bit late, but no problem, and asked us to start earlier if possible.

Next, Jason and I then decided that since they wanted to start early, why not me and him go play first, and I'll go fetch darling at 3. This way, we only have to wait for at most 30 minutes for me to go fetch her, rather than wait for 3 1/2 hours (it was 12 midnight). Called the 2 of them, and they said that they are not ready, and that they can only start at 2+. At that time, I was already quite pissed off.

We then went to Neo's place to slack and wait for them to call us. Nbcb. 3am, and they said they are not free yet. Can only start at about 330. Hello, you were the one who said 2+, I said 330 and you complained that it was too late, and asked us to go earlier, I said earlier, you said 2+, we waited till 3, and you say 330.

KNN.

You are not the king. Have some basic courtesy to inform us that you will be late. You had to wait for us to call u at 3am, before you would tell us that you guys will be ready at 330am.


Sorry, but I just don't like such things to happen.

ICT

In-camp training's been fine. And it's fun to see all the people back at INT branch again.

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BUT I HATE MY HAIR NOW! I look damn ugly in it man! Argh!

Sigh

Why must I fall sick again days before my performance at WTC?

I don't care. No matter how bad my cough is, no matter how different my voice is, I'll perform this Sunday.

Please bear with me :p

Agree?

Had a conversation over MSN with Neo earlier, and he said some really philosophical stuff.

"Good looking people like good looking people because they're good looking."
"Good looking people like bad looking people because it makes them feel better and more secure."
"So if you're neither good looking nor bad looking, you're basically screwed."

So, does anyone out there agree with this bullshit?

Photoshoot

Sorry for not updating for the past few days. For those who do not know, I've already shifted out of my house and is currently staying at my Ah Ma house until I get the keys for the new house on the 24th of Oct.

The photoshoot yesterday at BerryHappy was very fun! I had loads of fun, and I bet Joey and Fiona did too. Thanks Wendy, for making me look good! Hahaha I can't wait to see the photos man. It's only after this photo shoot that I come to notice how tough it is for models to look good 24/7, because the photo shoot was at 9.30am! Super early can!!!

And Minhui, sorry for missing the dance lesson today again. My handphone auto shutdown, and I didn't have any alarm to wake me up. It's the first time in many many years that I actually overslept and slept for 12 hours. I'm sorry. 对不起 :(

Clarification

Currently at selegie waiting for Neo to finish his school, before going out to chill or play mahjong.

Since so many people are asking, I'll just clarify some things here.

I'm SINGLE.

Recently, I've been calling someone darling, but it's all in the name of fun. It's true that I do have feelings for her, but it's impossible for the both of us to be together. That's what she said, and I think it's true. We both lead 2 different lives, and at the same time maybe our characters don't match too. So no matter how I like her, or the other round (I hope so), we can and shall remain as good friends.

At the same time, we won't be meeting up too often in case other people mistake us for being a couple, which many are already doing so. And she doesn't want to be tied down, which I totally respect. But I guess subconsciously I'm trying to do that, and as such it's making her feel very uncomfortable.

Since our lives are so different, it's better that we remain like what we are now. Good friends, the occasional movie, occasional dinner, occasional late night.

So clarification done.

I'm SINGLE, and AVAILABLE. I think.

Coin Depositing

Was helping my auntie pack all the coins yesterday night, and the coins were so damn heavy, even the 2 of us had difficulty carrying it and placing it into the car.

We then drove off to Jurong (which I found out today that it's damn stupid because there is one right at Yew Tee) to deposit the coins, and after depositing 2500+ pieces of coins, which is less than 10% of what we have, the machine gave me problems. "Coin jammed", "Service temporarily unavailable".

WTF!!!

What's going to happen to all those coins that I've deposited, which is like $500+!? And I still have so much more to deposit!

Had to call the phone banking hotline, and they said that it will be only be fixed at 8pm today! I wonder why it takes so long for a technician to come down and fix the machine. I certainly hope that they can fix it, and at the same time retrieve the amount that I've deposited so far at that outlet, and credit it into the bank account.

After that, went down to Millions to find Faith, Sebastian, Kelly and Darling. Sebastian, you're damn easy to fool. 你不打自招! I didn't hear any news from anyone! I just made a wild guess, and you admitted it yourself! =p


Lesson learnt: Do not bring so much coins to deposit at one go. The coin depositing machine is so damn small.

Packing Room + Pictures

Was packing my room since this morning, and I managed to clear a lot of useless stuff!

But at the same time, I also managed to find things that are of sentimental value to me, but left neglected in one corner.

Looking at my bare empty room, memories begin to creep back into my mind.

Memories of my grandmother coming into my room and chat with me, memories of my small little cousin coming into my room and play with me, memories of my friends coming to my place for a chit chat and gaming session.

I will miss this place. A lot. But at the same time, I'm looking forward to my new place, even though I'll most probably be living in there for a couple of years only.

Now, I've gotta wait for my darling to wake up and then go shopping together. I just noticed that I need a new bag! All my school bags are screwed up and ugly!

P.S. Darling, I think we should stop eating duck for the next few days =p















Clockwise from top left:
Teo, Toe, Chong Hsien, Yuling, Darren, Me


All these pictures point to one thing. I need a damn haircut and re-dye my hair! Anyone care to sponsor?

Soccer

I hate being under the sun for so many hours. Now my arms are red, my nose is red and my cheeks are red too :(

Futsal tournament yesterday was fun, though the results weren't satisfactory. Too bad, it's my final year already, so I can't join it again next year.

Messed Up

I'm starting to think that my life is damn messed up.

Either it's really happening, or that I'm thinking too much.


I need love. Badly.

Chest

Thanks to darling, Neo and Jason, my chest now has 3 very obvious scars.

But due to the fact that I want to keep my blog at a rating of PG, I will not post the picture of my scars.

If there's anyone who's interested in looking at it, you can always feel free to contact me and I'll show it to you.

Bloody Neo and Jason. Damn fucking pain can. Next time it's gonna be my turn to pinch you guys.

Our Future

Went to watch Wall-E with Neo, Jeffrey, Jason and Darling last night at Marina Square.

Is that going to be our future?

Where Earth is full of thrash and thus humans have to live in space?

And while in space, everything is so automated that basically humans do nothing except eat, sleep, play, and chat on a computer screen?

To the extent that they don't even know how to walk, because they're constantly on an automated chair?

Who knows, living in space might just become a reality in years to come. But I certainly hope that Earth is not what it's like in Wall-E, where there's nothing except rubbish. We're destroying the Earth, and we need to stop doing that right now. I don't want to die, and find out afterwards that my great-great-great-great-great-great-great-great grandchild is a passenger in the space shuttle, weighing 200KG, does not know how to walk even though he's 25, never talked to anyone face-to-face before, and not knowing what Earth is like.


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When a couple is having problems, I feel that both should sit down and talk through it. There's no point in avoiding it, especially when the couple is living together. It only makes things worse. Even if the couple ends up breaking up, and that the girl moves back to her original home, it will be much better in the long run. I know it's easier said than done, but don't worry.

There's me, Darling.

Irritating

It gets kinda irritating when after playing mahjong for about 7 hours from 12am to 7am, you end up not winning and not losing?

Hahaha. Happens to me a lot of times though, and I'm used to it.

Most importantly, don't lose :)


Dinner at AMK was great. The crabs were good, especially the claypot crab bee hoon soup! OMG! Faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarking great!

4 As!!!!!

Alvin (whispering): Eh Calvin, results 出了. 你拿什么result?
Me: 我不懂. 我不在家. 你在library huh? 讲话那么小声
Alvin: Uh. 我在library. 要不要我帮你check?
Me: 好啊! Scary sia. 我 expect 1 A, 1 B, 2 Cs

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Alvin: NB! 你的头lor! 你拿四个A!
Me: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Woohoo!!!! I'm so damn happy to get such a result, mainly because I promised my grandma that I will do so. I was worried that I couldn't do well as there were many things happening to me during my examination period and I couldn't concentrate on studying.


奶奶，我做到了。

New Game

I'm kind of addicted to this new game that Ben and Cashe taught me. It's actually a board game called Coda, but because we do not have the game itself, we use poker cards to replace it instead.

The game has got 26 tiles, 13 black and 13 white. At the start, each player is to take 4 tiles, 2 black and 2 white, and to arrange them in numerical order from left to right. If the 2 tiles have the same number, the black will be on the left of the white. The 13th tile is a joker, and can be placed anywhere inside the player's pack. Each turn, a player is to draw a tile from the remaining tiles, regardless of black or white, and to place that tile in the correct order in his pack. The player then starts to guess the opponent's tiles. If the player made a right guess, the opponent's tile will be revealed. The player can then choose to carry on guessing, or stop. If the player chooses to stop, he/she can then keep the drawn tile. If the player made an incorrect guess, his/her own drawn tile will be revealed.

The player who gets all the tiles revealed first loses.

We've been playing this game together for the past 2 days, and I must admit that although it is fun, it consumes like 1000% of your brain cells, and you'll be totally brain dead and exhausted at the end of 3 or 4 games.

But it's a really fun game that everyone should try!

Lost Voice

This is damn fucked up. I was supposed to perform at White Tangerine Cafe yesterday night, but I had no voice when I woke up in the morning. It's so damn frustrating!

I'm going to make sure that from today onwards, I'll drink lots of water, honey, and 枇杷膏!

Went for pool and supper with a few friends after the performance, and Neo constantly commented "this is student life man". Only one more year for me though, and after that it's to work and earn money! :)

Oops

Not been updating for the past few days. Lazy. Haha.

Last Sunday I was one of the many performers at Jurong Point, hoping to raise funds of the Children's Cancer Society. Saw Jeremaine there, an old friend of mine, who's now at Lee Wei Song School of Music. It feels great that the group of us who love singing, are able to do so on a different stage now. Rather than singing in the rooms or the halls of Partyworld, we are now doing it on a stage with a different meaning, which is to persuade people to donate generously. I don't know if I was able to touch anyone with my singing, but it felt really great to be able to be a part of this. It just made my life feel more meaningful, that I'm able to do something for those in need. Even if I didn't manage to persuade anyone, at least I'm grateful to be a part of this event.

After the charity performance, it was off to Global Sounds Cafe for our Echo Music Student Gathering, where students are supposed to perform and showcase what they've learned at Echo over the past few months or years, and to receive their certificates of recognition. I forgot my lyrics during my performance! OMG! I allowed myself to be distracted by Jake. I'm going to kill him! And congrats to Danick for winning the SGD100 for being the best performer for the night. You did well, and thanks for the dinner after that haha :)


I'm currently in the midst of transforming into a 宅男, one who always stay at home instead of going out. But this week is really busy for me. Yesterday I had soccer trials in the morning at 9.30am, and after that I had a badminton session at Serangoon with my classmates. But due to bad weather, I had to play soccer under heavy rain in the morning. Twice, to be exact. Already felt feverish while having lunch and playing badminton, and totally knocked out once I reached home.


Today is to go Zouk with Neo and Cash for a SMU bash. I'm not a clubber, and I've not been to Zouk for more than 5 times in my 24 years. But I'm just going there to accompany the 2 of them, to have a good time with the guys, and to see if they can hook up any girls in there, especially Cash who I think has the ability to do that.


Saturday morning is my 2nd photo shoot for my portfolio in Echo Music, and it's going to be an outdoor one! It's going to be the first time I'm doing an outdoor photo shoot, and I believe it's going to be really fun! Hope that the picutres will turn out fine, now that my teacher has given the photographer a set of photographs as a reference to the image that she wants to carve out for me. A bit of sweet looking and yet rebellious. Something like this one:



After the photo shoot, it'll be music lesson, and then rushing down to Mandai Crematorium to pray my secondary school classmate. It's a pity that she passed away when she was just 14. She had so much talent, and she was such a sweet girl, and yet she was hit by a mysterious virus and left us so suddenly. 11 years on, and she still lives in our heart.

After that it'll be down to Dungeon, as I'm invited to their 5th anniversary celebration. Haha.


And on Sunday I'll be having a performance at White Tangerine Cafe, performing with someone called Ivan, who I heard from my teacher is a regular performer at 爱琴海. Although I'll feel the stress performing beside such a seasoned performer, I do hope that it will push me to make sure that I improve and perform well at the same time. 加油!


And in the midst of all these events, I've been busy packing my room and prepare to move house. Will officially hand over our house to the new owner on the 15th of Sept, and will officially take over our new house on the 28th of Oct. In between, I'm homeless. Anyone having any room/apartment on rent for 2 months? Please let me know immediately if you have one. It's kinda urgent.

Updates

Thursday

Was in school for my first FYP consultation with my project supervisor, and I was shocked to see that Chris had the same supervisor as me. It's funny that I was the one who won the bid for my project while Chris had to choose another project title, and we end up having the same project supervisor, doing similar projects. Duh.

Had Neo's birthday celebration at Dungeon after that, and it felt great to see a few of my friends that I've not seen for quite some time. People like Kev, JF, Jessie, Luke. If Neo did not insist on drinking all of his lambo and half yard all by himself, he might not have been that dead drunk. But sadly, that was what he did, and within 15 minutes, he was gone. Totally gone. LOL. Was kinda happy for him that so many people turned up for his birthday celebration. I don't even remember when was the last time I had that many people celebrating my birthday with me. Maybe when I was in primary school?

End up, even Cash was drunk too, and we had so much trouble getting him into Jason's van. Oh, and Red, send me the video which you took while Cash was pee-ing behind the power box at the road side. Hahahahaha.


Friday

Met up with Jessie, Sheen, Neo and Chris for a KTV session at International Building. It's been such a long time since I last had a KTV session with them, considering the frequency of our KTV outings in the past. As usual, it was fun, and there were plenty of updates on one another's lives. Great to see you girls, and Sheen, you've really slimmed down a bit.


Monday

Was a school holiday, and thus no teaching for me. Had my quarter finals for "Be A Star" at 7pm, and I got eliminated. But as this is the first major competition that I've taken part in, I'm kind of satisfied with my performance, having get to the QFs. And moreover, out of 25, they only chose 10. I heard those 10 sing, and they were good. I've done my best, and therefore I don't feel sad having being eliminated. One of the judges came up to me after the competition and said that I did not perform up to the judges' expectations, using the previous rounds' performances as a guideline. It was just an opportunity to test myself and see how far I can go in such a competition, and I've gotten my answer.

Overall, I had fun in the competition, and I've also made a couple of friends who are going to be new additions to my list of KTV kakis :)

Thanks to those who wished me good luck. Fiona, Alex, Caleb, Taiwei, Rick. I didn't include Neo's name inside, because he was busy having fun at his SMU camp with all the hot babes ><

Qualification. With A Scare.

Yesterday, I had my preliminary round audition at Partyworld, International Building.

When the results were announced, my number wasn't in the list of the qualifiers. I took the souvenir from the MC, and was about to walk out of the room when suddenly the 2 judges stopped me and said that I'm supposed to be one of the qualifiers. The staff then double checked and said that my number is not in the list. So it's either a mistake made by the 2 judges, or a mistake by the staff.

So there I was, in front of all the contestants and audience, standing stranded, not knowing whether am I eliminated or have I qualified.

After they double checked with the 2 judges again, the staff noticed that they have made a mistake, and that I qualified for the quarter finals. What a scare! I'm very grateful to the 2 judges who recognised me and immediately pointed out that there was a mistake made. Thank you :)

And thanks to those who morally supported me. I made it =D

Yes!

Dear Yong Meng,

We confirm that the project title you have chosen: Online Web Assessment System has been assigned to you.

Your Project Supervisor is Mr Shimoga Lakshman

The role of the Project Supervisor is to give you guidance and feedback as you work on your project. Please take the sessions with your Project Supervisor seriously and strive to complete the project as scheduled. We would like to see many of you do well in this programme and pass all subjects with flying colours.

Your first project consultation is scheduled on

07 August 2008
SIMHQ Rm 3-11
7:00pm

Best regards
Cynthia Asio
Higher Education 2
DID 6248 9193


Woohoo! I got my FYP! Finally!

For Laughs

This is damn funny.

Untraceable

Was watching this DVD at home, and I find it quite amazing. Even though I went online to look at what people say about the show, and many of them were negative, I would still give the movie a 7 on a scale of 10.

This movie is about this psycho who kidnaps people, torture them, put it on live streaming, and the more people who visit the website, the faster the person gets killed. So basically, if no one surfed the website, the person will never be dead. But, amazingly, millions of people visit the website everytime someone gets captured and is streamed online, and it indirectly causes the person to die even faster.

What will you do if this happens in real life? If you are the police, will you hold a press conference and ask people to stop visiting the website? If you are the public and you hear about this story, will you be thinking, "Nah, me going to visit the website won't harm. It's only adding 1 to the number anyway. Won't get that person killed that quickly."

Sadly, I believe that if this actually happened in real life, an alarming number of people will visit the website. And after that person dies, these people will not even be guilty and think that they are actually accomplices in crime.

The power of internet. In a negative way. Reflected so accurately through this movie. Go watch it.

Personality Test

Taken from http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you meet that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.


Friends, please tell me if these words are true.

It's Been More Than A Week

And my voice is still not back.

And I'm still coughing.

And I'm still vomitting.

Argh! When can I ever recover!?


Luckily, Partyworld allowed me to postpone my audition to the 4th of August. And, congratulations to my bro and Caleb for making it past the 2nd round audition! Certainly hope that I can make it past the 2nd round too, and meet you guys in the next round! We are enemies!


School's been quite OK. And I believe everyone has already chosen their titles for their FYP. Sadly, I'll have to compete with, of all people, Chris. Chris, 不是你死就是我亡! Hahahaha.


Recently, I don't know what's happening to me, but I can't sleep, and normal dosages of cough mixture (10ml) cannot put me to sleep. So what do I do? I drink 30ml in 1 night, and 35ml in another. Last night, I opened a new bottle of cough mixture in the dark and drank without knowing how much. I just opened it up and checked. New record. 40ml. Hope I do not get too reliant on an overdose of cough mixture to put myself to sleep, as I totally didn't sleep much during the 1 week that I'm not feeling well.

Disappointed. Frustrated.

Why, of all times, must I be sick now?!!

Fever. Flu. Cough. Sore throat.

Because of this throat, I had to miss my performance at White Tangerine Cafe on Sunday.

Because of the bloody sore throat, which only seems to get worse day by day, I had to miss my audition for the singing competition at Boat Quay yesterday.

And because of this sore throat, which I don't think will recover anytime soon, I will have to miss my 2nd round of auditions for "Be A Star" at Partyworld.

Why!!!


I want to say thank you to those who wished me a speedy recovery. Sadly, even the doctor said that it takes me at least 5 days to fully recover, and he gave me a 3 day MC. Who the hell gets a 3 day MC for sore throat? I guess it just shows how serious the throat inflammation is.

Busy

Been really busy with many things recently.

Singing. School (both teaching and studying). Performances. Competitions. Friends.

Suddenly feel very overwhelmed by all of these events, and find that I need to have a really good time management plan.

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School's been fun. The module's interesting, and so is the teacher. The only sickening part is that lessons are on Friday nights, from 7pm to 10pm! That is like the worst time slot for a lesson. Even the lecturer's wondering why did the school set it like this, and salute us for going to his lesson, instead of skipping it and going out.

Well, Mr Lecturer, it's because this is only the beginning :)

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Competitions were good. Just want to test how far I can go, instead of aiming to win and dream of being a singer. I do think that with competitions and the comments that are given to you, you can improve. By pushing yourself, you can perform better too.

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Beware, everyone. There is some kind of a flu + cough + sore throat virus going out there. Many people I know are falling sick, and all have the same symptoms. And I just became a victim of it 3 days ago! It was mild initially, but now my voice is terrible. My throat hurts even as I speak or swallow my saliva, and I've got my 2nd round auditions for "Be A Star" on Wednesday! *Prays that I can recover by then*

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Just received an email talking about sugar cane drinks. Here it is.

A friend whose father works for the government health inspection passed on his info. Their job is to inspect all hawkers, their cooked food, their store hygiene, etc. They found sugar cane juice has the highest content of bacteria among all food.
In fact, it has exceeded the set limit.

Hence, these guys had to find out why. They went round all sugar cane stores and watched the way the hawkers handled their sugar cane, wash their glasses, their entire procedure. But they couldn't find the problem.

One day, they stayed till closing time and discovered some shocking facts! Whenever, the hawkers closed their stores, they would wash the floor with detergent. As we know, the remaining sugar canes will be placed at the back of the store, vertically standing and as sugar canes are very porous, they tend to absorb whatever liquid around them. Besides the soapy water, the dirt on hawkers' boots, cats' urine, etc, will all be absorbed?? Now, whenever I eat at a hawker centre, I would warn all my friends about this and of course I stopped drinking my favourite sugar cane juice.

A friend, who loved sugar cane juice, was pregnant. She was always drinking sugar cane juice. Anyway, one day she miscarried and the foetus was already like 6 or 7 months old, I think. When the doctors did an autopsy to find out why all of a sudden the foetus had died inside her, they found traces of some chemical substance, which was found in cat urine. Large traces of it.

While it would not be able to harm adults, it was extremely toxic to babies, what more a foetus? So they tried to determine how this cat urine thing could have ended up in the foetus. This meant that it had to be digested by the mother, right? And the only logical conclusion they could come up with was that since these sugar cane juice stall holders just leave the canes lying around on the wet and dirty floor, it would not be impossible to think that stray cats could have peed on those sugar canes or near those sugar canes. So think carefully the next time you order that favourite sugar cane juice!

Please pass this on to everyone you know in S'pore & M'sia. Let's take action to make this world a better & safer place for all of us & the generations to come.

So please be careful!

Lost

Someone please tell me what song should I sing for my next round of auditions for "Be A Star"!

Went KTV with Neo, Apple and Eunice yesterday. And still, I don't know what song to choose!

Argh!!!


And recently, a few of my friends saw me and say that my eyes look swollen. Gina, Denise, Jasson, and many more. Apparently, crying every night before sleeping is taking its toll, that is if I even slept.

But, I can't help it, can I?

Poor Performance

Performed from 9pm to 10pm yesterday at White Tangerine Cafe at Kovan CC, and sadly I didn't do well for all my 3 songs. In fact, I felt that I did terribly for 遗失的美好.

But it's ok! I will make sure that I improve with every performance, and not make the same mistakes again!

And, I need to learn how to sit straight. Haha.


Argh! I got cheated today morning! It's Youth Day today! A school holiday! No lessons for me to teach, and yet the school didn't inform us at all! Make me wake up at like 6.45am just to go to an empty school, and chat with the security guard for 10 minutes before heading home, and blogging right now.

I must tell my students to SMS me whenever there is a school holiday the next day, so that I won't enter an empty CCKSS again. Lol.

My Car Is Back!

Yes!

My car has finally been repaired!

Damage: $5000+

Next year's insurance premium's gonna be a killer.

To my driver friends: Please drive carefully. If the price to pay for an accident is money, it's fine. But if it's a life, then no amount of money can pay for that.

The perfect song that currently describes my feelings and thoughts:

陈小春 - 我爱的人

我知道故事不会太曲折
我总会遇见一个什么人
陪我过没有了她的人生
成家立业之类的等等
她做了她觉得对的选择
我只好祝福她真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢
我爱的人 不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸都属于另一个人
她真幸福幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深
我爱的人 她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神 说明了我不可能
每当听见她或他说「我们」
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声

不充实的生活

最近真的忙得不可开交。 练歌，表演，做工，教课。

我忽然间想了一想，觉得她应该会这么说： “为什么你要等到我们分开了，你才开始做这些事呢？为什么我们在一起的时候你没做这些事呢？如果你有做，那事情就会完全不同了。”

我觉得这是一个很多人会犯的错。很多人会因为有了另一半，而觉得太过满足。

这正是我犯的一个错。大错特错。

跟她在一起的时候，终是觉得其他的事情根本就不重要，无论是工作或读书。

虽然这没有影响到我的成绩，但是却使她和她的家人觉得我是一个很懒散的人，是一个没有上进心的人，是一个不能依靠的男人。

现在的我变了。

我现在只想把我的书念好，为了不辜负我死去的奶奶的期望。毕业后，找一份工作，存了钱以及了解市场的需要过后，再开一间小公司，自己当老板。

儿女私情的东西，我不想再管了。如果她愿意回到我的身边，那是最好的。要不然，就把钱花在自己以及我姑姑和姑丈的身上。

我打算让天来决定此事。

至于我对她的爱，是永远都不会变的。

那一天的到来之前，无论我多忙，我都会觉得我的生活很不充实。

因为没有她。

Charity Performance

The charity performance on Wednesday was fun! And it was a last minute decision to sing live! Haha, we were all so happy to hear that as 对嘴 is really very tough.

Guess it was a good experience for all of us, especially Neo, who got to sing live with Ric from Dreamz FM. So jealous :(

P.S. Thanks Minhui, for that oversized + crumped T-shirt haha



All happy and satisfied!

Next stop: White Tangerine Cafe at Kovan!

我撞车了

If there was anyone who was caught in a jam at the PIE towards Changi Airport at about 8.30pm to 9.30pm on Friday, it's because of a 7 car chain collision at the extreme right lane.

I was the 7th car.

3 to 10 seconds before the collision, I was in the middle lane. If I had stayed in the middle lane, I'd have been fine. But unluckily, I chose to change to the extreme right lane. And what happened next was this: bang, bang, bang, screeching sound, brake lights of the taxi in front, I tried to swerve left to the middle lane, failed, and bang. I hit the left rear of the taxi, and my front right is damaged. Felt damn fucked up.

No. I wasn't speeding. I was travelling at 80km/h.

No. I wasn't tailgating. I was about 1 car length away.

Luckily, those people who were all caught in the accident were fine. Many came over and told me what to do and what to say in order to protect myself, as the law always make the last guy in a chain collision the culprit.

After that, all went to the TP headquarters for taking of statements. The worst thing was that when I went in, the investigating officer told me that I might be fined SGD200 and have 6 points deducted. He didn't tell me the reason why, but the tow truck guy who sent me there explained to me that it's considered reckless driving for being the last guy. Argh!


On Saturday, had to go to Borneo Motors to file an accident report. As the person insured is my uncle, who happens to be in Japan and is uncontactable, they told me that I had to wait until my uncle comes back and sign the form before they can start to repair the car, irregardless of how long he is going to be away. I was like, WTF! Luckily, my auntie managed to complain and psycho them to let her sign on my uncle's behalf.

After that, went down to Guillemard Road to collect our replacement car provided by the insurance. We were supposed to take the Vios, but then because we were in a rush and the guy was taking his own sweet time to drive the Vios back, we had to take the Hyundai Matrix.

Damn bloody wrong choice.

I've only been driving it for 2 days, half the petrol is gone, and it was full when I collected it.


And amazingly, until now, my auntie didn't ask me if I suffered any injuries. Over the phone when the accident happened, she asked me 2 questions.

First question: "You were speeding, right?!"

Second question: "How's the car now?"

The only people who said that the car is not as important as my safety are my friends. Interesting eh?

I bet when my uncle comes home, he'll say the exact same thing as my auntie. Suspect that I was speeding, and ask what's the damage to the car like. He won't be asking if I suffered any injuries.

He should be back on Thursday. It's gonna be judgement day for me. I might even be grounded and not be allowed to drive in the future. Damn.

Jam 蕭敬騰

2008年最期待的聲音蕭敬騰

不要全世界，只要你聽見他的歌!

李偲菘、李偉嵩、馬玉芬、陳偉、曹格、F.I.R./阿沁、五月天/阿信、蘇打綠/青峰、小宇、陳鎮川、鄔裕康 華語樂壇重量級音樂人聯手打造


-專輯收錄「收藏」「原諒我」「王子的新衣」等10+1首必備入手完全K歌
-獨家珍藏「一輩子存在」「海芋戀」2首蕭敬騰自創曲
-專輯內附「收藏蕭敬騰集點貼紙x1」

一個足以穿透一切東西且富有深切情感的聲音，蕭敬騰。

【收藏】
首張同名專輯裡敬騰的第一波主打【收藏】，是由李偉菘老師作曲，陳鎮川老師作詞。從極具生命力的聲音開啟整首歌及整張專輯，進入了全新的蕭敬騰，英式搖滾的蕭敬騰，內容傳達蕭敬騰從小到大，不論是開心還是悲傷，所有的心情故事都濃縮珍藏在詞曲當中，讓大家聽了也能感受他的喜怒哀樂。

【原諒我】
【原諒我】，是同門師兄FIR的 阿沁 為蕭敬騰精心打造的情歌。流暢的弦律線條帶出副歌的（原諒我，原諒我不成熟），也是用蕭敬騰的口吻去寫出這種說不出口的情感，令人了解他沈默但卻有豐富情感的一面，是一首非常好聽，而且耐聽的情歌。

【王子的新衣】
【王子的新衣】，是一首有爆炸力的美式抒情搖滾，其中直接寫出他的想法，更可以看到在他沈默的外表有著另一種叛逆的個性；整首歌很有爆發力及渲染力。

【奮不顧身】
接下來一首動人的情歌【奮不顧身】，是由曹格作曲，直接的情感，動人的聲線，副歌（我用我的生命愛你，不讓尖銳的世界傷害你），寫出奮不顧身愛一個人的情感。具有戲劇性效果的編曲，讓聽的人的情緒隨著他的聲音而上下起伏。

【疼愛】
五月天阿信也為蕭敬騰量身打造【疼愛】，一首中版的輕快歌曲，簡單的弦律，輕快的節奏，舒服的聲音，讓人有種紓壓的感覺。

【活著】
新銳創作歌手 小宇同學，也為蕭敬騰寫了一首傳唱度高、渲染力十足的金屬搖滾快歌【活著】，副歌部份如同情緒宣洩般的張力，展現出敬騰歌聲的爆發力。歌詞內容則是寫給支持他的歌迷朋友們。

【多希望你在】
這張專輯眾多音樂人共同參與。這次更邀請到了蘇打綠的吳青峰為敬騰寫一首很好聽的氣質抒情悲歌【多希望你在】。像詩一般的歌詞，也為蕭敬騰的聲音帶來優雅的氣息，是值得一聽再聽的好歌；敬騰在這首歌裡也嚐試了運用假音唱法，更讓人再認識了他聲音的可塑性。

【我在哭】
李偲菘老師為蕭敬騰寫了一首英式抒情歌【我在哭】，略為成熟的弦律意外地適合蕭敬騰的聲線，在一段一段的舖陳下，情緒也進入了他的領域。邊聽著這首歌，會邊想要和他一起愛，一起哭。

【Blues】
陳偉老師也為蕭敬騰打造了一首具速度感的搖滾快歌【Blues】，是整張專輯中最快的一首歌，狂放的曲風，也讓人見識到了蕭敬騰唱快歌的功力。

【一輩子存在】
這首是蕭敬騰自己的創作，展現了他除了好歌喉之外的另一種創作才華。一首具有情感醞釀的抒情歌【一輩子存在】，讓人除了認識他的聲音更認識了他的內心世界，帶有一點Gasple味道的副歌，深情而具深度的Vocal，足以打動無數人的心。

【bonus track：海芋戀】
【海芋戀】這首也是蕭敬騰的創作歌曲。中版而青春洋溢的弦律，呈現出來的也正是21歲的他的內心世界。外表看似沈穩冷靜，其實私底下還是個活潑的大男孩。當初因為比賽而創作的海芋戀，早已在網路上流傳許久，這一次在同名專輯裡特別加入這首當作bonus track，讓喜愛敬騰的歌迷們能夠好好珍藏！

01. 收藏
02. 王子的新衣
03. 原諒我
04. 奮不顧身
05. 疼愛
06. 多希望妳在
07. 活著
08. 一輩子存在
09. 我在哭
10. Blues
11. 海芋戀


太好听了！！！！！

Performances!

Heard from my S.T.A.R program instructor that from July onwards, we will be performing at cafes regularly! So exciting! I've always wanted to perform for people, but I never had the chance to do so. Now that I have this opportunity, I have to make sure that my voice is in tip-top condition. And that means no more 麻辣火锅 :(

Nothing much happened these few days, except that my auntie and uncle went to Castle Green at Yio Chu Kang to view 3 flats, and they fell in love with 1 of them. Apparently, they are already checking out some details regarding CPF with a friend of my auntie, who happens to be the agent who is keeping a lookout for potential buyers of our flat.

I already have plans on how to renovate my new room! Haha! New bed, LCD TV mounted on wall with SCV, theatre system, PS3, neatly packed wardrobe with many old clothes donated to charity, huge bookshelf for all my studying materials, long study table with my desktop, iMac (planning to buy one), and my laptop side by side, all connected by a linksys router.

But it's only a 3 room condo, about 1156 square feet, which is 500 square feet smaller than my current. That's 1/3 of my current flat gone! But then again, with only 3 people and 2 dogs, we don't need a big house anymore. Moreover, I'll eventually get married and move out. So getting a condo for them is quite right, in a sense that when they retire, they can sell it for a good price and then they will probably emigrate to Australia for retirement.

I'm really thankful to my auntie and uncle for bringing me up when my father passed away when I was just 3 years old. They gave up the idea of having their own children, and made me theirs. How great is that! The only thing that I can do now is to make sure that I get a good certificate (probably Masters), get a good job with good pay, give them monthly allowance (although they won't need it at all), and make sure that they stay healthy.

Thank you, 姑姑, 姑丈.

Pictures Of Concert

Only a few pictures. And they're almost the same. Haha. The reason why there isn't any picture of me with any of the artistes, it's because I don't like taking pictures. Except for big group photos.


Members of the S.T.A.R program (Take 1)
Top (L to R): Alex, Zhang Yan, Wenbin, Neo
Bottom (L to R): Me, Esther, Meijun



Members of the S.T.A.R program (Take 2). I look ugly in here.



Members of the S.T.A.R program (Take 3). Addition: Jake, the youngest of us all. The one who said I looked retard in this picture. I'll kill you for this, Jake!



Two of the instructors in the school, Caleb and Minhui. This picture is going to scare potential students away. Without any doubt.



全家幅 + Ruth, the music director of the concert. Her keyboard skills is .. just absolutely fantastic.

Nice

Friday
Went to fetch Jake down to town to meet up with Fiona and Alex, all students of the S.T.A.R program in Echo Music. First time meeting Fiona, and Neo's right. It is easy to make friends with people who have the same interest, in our case music. Don't know why, but Alex became Jake's fashion consultant. But then again, with Alex being the model, it's easy for him to give comments isn't it?

After following them to HMV to get a top for Jake, I found out that I really need to buy new clothes! All my clothes are old and boring. But then again, where to get the money? :(


Saturday
Woke up feeling really terrible, and vomited at least 3 times before leaving to Suntec to work in the CNA seminar. It felt great to see old friends from CNA again, and I really enjoy working in such seminars as the stage manager. Liaising with the audio guy in the control room, with the MC from CNA, with Gillian, and with the sponsors. Gillian even commented that the sponsor from Great Eastern loves me. Haha. Hope I'll have the opportunity to work with them again, as it's been great fun working there with them.

After the seminar ended, I had to run to Raffles Hotel to join the Echo guys backstage for 玖健's concert. This was the first time I'm backstage at a major concert for an artiste, and I must say that the experience is cool. Not only that, it's also amazing to find out that after 20 years, 玖健 still sounds bloody good. And his songs are nice too!

The seminar ended late, and the funny thing was that I had to sit in one of the guy's car, and get to Suntec to get my car in the carpark. I had a complimentary ticket which ends at 11.59 pm and the time was already 11.45 pm. I was basically running down the ramp and all the way to the other end of the carpark to get my car. Time when I exited: 11.53pm. Bloody lucky. Else, the parking would have cost me $14. Bloody funny :)

The "VROOM-VROOM" is unforgettable!


Today
Cam-whoring session after the end of 玖健's concert. Saw many artistes gathering together, and Minhui says she'll introduce 梦飞船 to me as they are all friends! Yipee! Will post pictures when I get all of them from everyone!

Steamboat at Bugis was great, and we all had great time suan-ing Jake, didn't we? Too bad Jake, who asks you to be the youngest and the one with the scandal?

It's great knowing all the people from the S.T.A.R program! :)


Tomorrow
Hair-trimming session, buying of white top at Bugis Village, and then a makeup photoshoot for me for the S.T.A.R program! I must look good!

Damn

Feeling too bloody sick and weak to even walk down to my kitchen. Had to apologise to the company and hoped for another interview later this week, when I get better. Why am I sick, of all times, now!?

A friend of mine told me to have hope, and introduced me this song

Mariah Carey - I Still Believe

You look in my eyes and I get emotional inside
I know it’s crazy, but you still can touch my heart
And after all this time you think that I wouldn’t feel the same
But time melts into nothing, and nothing's changed

I still believe
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves
In love again

I had a dream
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves
In love again

Each day of my life, I’m filled with all the joy I could find
You know that I, I'm not the desperate type
If there’s one spark of hope left in my grasp, I'm holding it with both hands
It’s worth the risk of burning, to have a second chance

No, no, no, no, no, no, I need you, baby
I still believe that we can be together, no…
If we believe that true love never has to end
Then we must know that we will love again, Mmm..

I still believe
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves
In love again (Oh, baby, yeah)

I had a dream
You and me
Will find ourselves
In love again

I still believe (Ooh, baby, I do)
Someday you and me (Just give me one more try)
In love again

I had a dream (I miss your love)
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves
In love again

I still believe
Someday you and me (will find ourselves in love...)

Another Interview!

This is the one I'm looking for!

Interview for Java Programmer tomorrow at 5pm! With a chance for a long term contract after graduation!

If I am able to get in to this one, it'll be a good chance for me to get real experience in this industry. Not only that, it's also a test for me as to whether I'm good enough to stay.

*Prays*

Past 3 Days ...

Tuesday -
Had lunch with Wanhua at Lau Pa Sat. That stupid Neo went to Maxwell market instead of LPS. No wonder he couldn't find me and vice versa. After that, went for an interview for the position of IT Trainer at Cecil House. The interview was really good, and she has confirmed that I am employed as an IT Trainer under their company, and that I will hear from them for projects once the school reopens in late June. Woohoo!

Wednesday -
Had my audition at Echo Music for the S.T.A.R program. Sang the chorus of 如果你还爱我 by 光良, and after that Esther wanted to test my range. Sadly I didn't reach the high notes that I can normally reach, but it was still ok. They felt that I had the potential, and thus I got in :)

Today -
Went to GV Plaza to watch "The Chronicles of Narnia - Prince Caspian" with Haoping, Edward and Rick, and I personally will give it a rating of 8 out of 10. Had a mini pool game before going for 2 games of bowling. I won both games, and Edward owes me 2 cans of drink for that. Edward you A.S.K, you better give me my 2 cans of coke! Went to a restaurant called Waraku at Marina Square for dinner, and the food there was fantastic. And affordable too!


I still need to find a part time job!

And I just got enlightened tonight. I know that whatever I've done is wrong, stupid and unforgivable. But what's done is done, and the only thing I can do now is to make sure that I do not repeat the same stupid mistake again. And I believe I won't, because there isn't even a chance of it happening again. I want to be able to proudly stand in front of her and tell her that I've moved on, I've changed myself to be a better person, I still love you as much as I did, maybe even more, for the 4 years we were together, and I will fight for a chance to win your love back.

Please wait.

Application for Part/Full Time IT Trainer

Dear Calvin,

Thanks for your application.

We would like to meet you for an interview tomorrow, 27 May 2008 at 3.30pm. We are located at 139 Cecil St #05-01/02 Cecil House S069539. Kindly bring along your resume and copy of your certificates.

Appreciate if you could confirm your availability for the interview.

Thank you.

Regards,
GNS School of Business and Technology
Tel: (65) 6323 1884
Fax: (65) 6323 1982


I finally have a reply from all the applications that I send out! I quoted SGD20/hr, which is the rate that I'm receiving from Reli Net. I wonder if they're going to pay me the same amount. Wanted to quote more than that, but only if I'm going to be teaching working adults.

If I'm really going to be teaching working adults, I'd be so happy!

Wish me luck in getting in!

如果你还爱我

我带着一颗疲惫的心走了

我知道自己在你心里已不重要

虽然我们曾经相聚过

也许对于你来说

已经没有什么值得回忆

我带着一颗沉重的心走了

我知道自己没有勇气道别离

虽然我们曾经拥有过

但是对于你来说

已经没有什么值得回忆

难道早以注定

不能真正拥有你

难道我真心付出一切

只为了承受孤单和寂寞

我知道你不敢对我坦白

是不要看到我的伤怀

虽然你没有说要离开我

我已经感到你不再属于我

如果你还爱我

你不会对我如此的冷漠

又怎会让我在漫漫长夜独自徘徊

如果你还爱我

你不会对我如此的冷漠

我只能含着眼泪

默默的离开

难道早以注定

不能真正拥有你

难道我真心付出一切

只为了承受孤单和寂寞

我知道你不敢对我坦白

是不要看到我的伤怀

虽然你没有说要离开我

我已经感到你不再属于我

如果你还爱我

你不会对我如此的冷漠

又怎会让我在漫漫长夜独自徘徊

如果你还爱我

你不会对我如此的冷漠

我只能含着眼泪

默默的离开

如果你还爱我

你不会对我如此的冷漠

又怎会让我在漫漫长夜独自徘徊

如果你还爱我

你不会对我如此的冷漠

我只能含着眼泪

默默的离开

To Gina, Raye and Neo:
Sorry for breaking down at the shop in Arab Street last night. It just happened that I had the time to sit down and think of all the memories that I had with her. It was just too much for me to handle suddenly. I mean, normally my tears only appear before I go to sleep. I guess it came out a bit too early last night. How long did I cry man? 10 minutes at least? I hope I didn't scare you guys, and thank you all for the support, especially Neo. I know what I need to do, but I just can't do it yet. Sorry to disappoint man.

For now, I hope that I can start to concentrate on my singing first by getting into the star program for vocal lessons. I need to learn how to control my voice! Taking my first step in improving my singing!

We Are The Champions Of Europe

It was a fantastic game! It had everything that a match needed! Be it the great passing, tackling, defending, dribbling, goalkeeping!


1st Half
Noticed that the pitch is really small as compared to those in the EPL. First 20 minutes were cagey, and nothing much to talk about. Man Utd had the upper hand in this half, and who else but Ronaldo to head home a cross from Wes Brown. He totally exposed the poor defending of Essien, once again proving the fact that Essien's not a defender, but a midfielder. Remember that, Grant.

Complacency took over Man Utd though, and just when they were about to settle for half time, Chelsea struck back. Ronaldo, being lazy, did not track Essien running down the middle of the field. Essien took a shot from 30 yards out, and the ball took a double deflection off Vidic and then Ferdinand's back, before landing perfectly in front of Lampard to slot home from 6 yards out.

Half ended 1-1.


2nd Half
This time round, Chelsea took over. Not many incidents to take note of, except one where Drogba struck a beautiful curling shot with his right foot from about 25 yards out, and it struck the post with Van Der Sar beaten.

Full Time ended 1-1. Into Extra Time.


Extra Time
Lampard shot hits post.

Stupid incident in the 2nd half of extra time.

Cech saw Carvalho injured on the ground. He decided to kick the ball out so that he could receive treatment. But it was obvious that it was just time wasting as other players like Ashley Cole and John Terry took the time to do some stretching.

Man Utd then took the throw in, and kicked the ball out for another throw in, while Tevez urged his teammates to move up the field and pressurize them. Chelsea, expecting Man Utd to kick the ball out for a goal kick, got mad. A scuffle then broke out, ending with Drogba slapping Vidic, earning himself a red card and an early shower.

What are you thinking, Chelsea? If you wanted to give up possession just to waste time, you still expect sportsmanship from your opponent? You can't just expect your opponent to give you back the ball the way you want them to. This is not a normal soccer match between 2 secondary schools. This is the Uefa Champions League Final. You should be glad that Man Utd bothered to give the possession back to you guys. I mean, there is no law in football that says that the opponent team MUST return possession in situations like this. It's up to the opponent to return the possession to you due to sportsmanship. But obviously, you've taken it for granted and think that Man Utd MUST return possession to you, and in the way that you want them to! And then what happens? Almost 20 players from both teams got involved in the scuffle, all for a bloody throw in? And even getting your own star striker red carded? This is stupid. Imagine what could have happened if Drogba was still in for the penalty shootout?

Think.


Penalties
Man Utd won the toss, and decided to go first, hoping that they could score and put the pressure on Chelsea instead.

Round 1:
Tevez scores. 1-0
Ballack scores. 1-1

Round 2:
Carrick scores. 2-1
Belletti scores. 2-2

Round 3:
Ronaldo penalty saved. 2-2.
Lampard scores. 2-3

Round 4:
Hargreaves scores. 3-3
Ashley Cole scores. 3-4

Round 5:
Nani scores. 4-4
John Terry slips and penalty hits the post. 4-4

Round 6:
Anderson scores. 5-4
Kalou scores. 5-5

Round 7:
Giggs scores. 6-5
Anelka penalty saved. Man Utd wins!


Verdict
I think it's the first major penalty shootout that Sir Alex Ferguson has won with Man Utd!

Great game. I'd say Man Utd deserved it. I pity John Terry. He's a good player, and you could see how heartbroken he was after the shootout. He was basically sobbing non-stop, and somehow no one could console him. But I believe that he is strong and will come back next season even stronger. As a Man Utd player! Haha. Well, he's a self-confessed Man Utd fan anyway!

Great season for Man Utd too. Achieving the double. Like what Sheen says, it's been 9 long years. Let's hope that we do not need to wait that long again for the next one. Probably 1 year will do :)

Mourning

Saw this message while I was trying to download some song albums from a China BT website.

为表达全国各族人民对四川汶川大地震遇难同胞的深切哀悼，国务院决定，2008年5月19日至21日为全国哀悼日。在此期间，全国和各驻外机构下半旗志哀，停止公共娱乐活动，外交部和我国驻外使领馆设立吊唁簿。5月19日14时28分起，全国人民默哀3分钟，届时汽车、火车、舰船鸣笛，防空警报鸣响。为了表示哀悼，本站暂时关闭。祈祷在灾区的朋友平安！

Let's all mourn together.

Loof

Anyone heard of this place called the 'Loof'?

It is situated at Odeon Towers, which is opposite Raffles Hotel. If I'm not wrong, 'Loof' is actually the singlish version of 'Roof'. Yes, this chillout place happens to be at the rooftop of the building, which is only 3 storeys high though.

It sells drinks (alcoholic and non-alcoholic), and some finger food. As for the price, I would think that it's cheap considering its location and considering how 'atas' the place is. The ambience there is fantastic, and you can just simply sit down there and chat for hours, which was what I did with Neo and friends.

The only irritating thing is the fan! It kept blowing at me, and messed up my hair!

But other than that, if there is a place that you would like to go to after a long day to relax with your pals, go to the 'Loof'.

End Of Year 2

Finally, it's the end of Year 2!

The 2 papers on Wednesday were a killer though, especially Software Engineering. It's amazing that I actually found Networking to be easier than Software Engineering. Many of my classmates walked out of the exam hall shaking their heads, saying that they're gonna fail and that they'll have to repeat those modules again. I hope not.

Now that Year 2 has ended, it's time for me to start finding a part time job that allows me to work until end of August.

KTV last night with Jess, Sheen and Luke was fun! But then again, it just reminded me of the days where the group was so much bigger, and I could hug her while singing, or while she was singing.

Oh shit, I'm going to emo again. Damn, why can't I stop doing that?

Maybe because it's a Saturday, and I have no friends to go out with?

Does anyone want to date me?


Warning:
Please do not park your car under any trees at the open carpark opposite Cineleisure. I parked there from 5.30pm to 12 midnight, and my ENTIRE car was full of bird shit! I pity the guy at the 24 hour carwash who helped me wash the car. He gave me a wry smile after he used the water hose to wash off all the shit, like he's saying "how the hell did you get so much bird shit, and this job is shit too"

I pity the bird whose shit was red. Maybe it ate something wrong, or that it had some disease.


Listening to this song right now. Must be due to the 天天夜夜 I sang last night.

How Do I Live Without You

How do I get through one night without you
If I had to live without you
What kind of life would that be
Oh I, I need you in my arms
Need you to hold
You're my world, my heart, my soul

If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything good in my life
And tell me now

How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive
How do I
How do I
Oh, how do I live

Without you, there'd be no sun in my sky
There would be no love in my life
There'd be no world left for me
And I, oh Baby, I don't know what I would do
I'd be lost if I lost you
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything real in my life
And tell me now

How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive
How do I
How do I
Oh, how do I live

If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything
Need you with me
Baby can't you know that you're everything good in my life
And tell me now

How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive
How do I
How do I
Oh, how do I live

How do I live without you
How do I live without you baby
How do I live....

Earth

What is happening to our Earth?

First, there's the tsunami. Then, there's the cyclone which hit Myanmar. And just less than 2 hours ago, a powerful earthquake measuring 7.8 hit China, affecting buildings as far as Bangkok.

Is our Earth trying to tell us something? That it is time for us to stop causing damage to it? And that is why It is retaliating by having all these natural disasters?

I'm lucky to be here in Singapore where there are no natural disasters (at least for now). And that is why I feel for those who are affected. Imagine enjoying your lunch and watching your favourite movie on DVD, and then suddenly within minutes you're scrambling for your life, and you find that you not only lose everything that you had, but also lose your family.

It's time that we start to treat our Earth well.

For now, what we can do as Singaporeans, is to donate whatever you can for the victims of Cyclone Nargis which hit Myanmar. For now, they can only accept cash donations due to logistical problems.

I've donated SGD200 to the Salvation Army. It might not be a huge amount, but I certainly hope that the money can help someone.

Friends who are reading my blog, even if it's SGD25 or SGD50, just go donate. Help those people in need.

The link is here

Happy

Paper on Thursday was a breeze! So happy!

Well, definitely I had some minor mistakes here and there, but on overall I do believe that I can get an A for it. Yes! On my way to my 1st Class Honours!


Went Bugis and Sim Lim yesterday with Jessie, and I must say that it was quite fun. Walking around Bugis aimlessly, looking at cutesy stuff, having lunch at Ajisen. Jessie then couldn't decide if she should service and continue using her 6 year old Twinhead laptop, or just simply buy a new one. Checked out some Sony laptop which she loved a lot, if not for the fact that some are China-made. Then sent her for her job interview, before meeting Neo and his colleagues.

Before that Jessie told me a lot of things which enlightened me, and I want to thank her for that.


Sunday's Mother's Day. You guys bought anything for your mothers? For me, I don't have a mother nor a father. But to me, my auntie and my uncle are just like my dad and mom. Yes, I don't buy them gifts, but I do treat them to dinner. It is just a way of me thanking them for sacrificing by not having any children of their own and instead choosing to bring me up when my dad passed away when I was 3.

I mean, there are some relatives who couldn't be bothered about his/her relative's kids when they pass away, and they'll just say "aiyah put the kid in an orphanage lah!"

To all the mothers, Happy Mother's Day.

Except my own mother. She don't deserve to be called a mother.

1 Down, 3 To Go

Today's paper didn't go as smoothly as I would have expected, but I believe I'm still on course for an A. Sad that I spotted the wrong chapters to study, for this is the first time I see the paper not having any theory questions from the first part of the course. Both theory questions were from the second part of the course, which we concentrated very little on.

Targetting at least an 80.

Next up, CIS 212: Advanced Programming and Techniques! Must get A!

For now, time to go sleep and teach for tomorrow. Kinda miss all those little students of mine. Well, ok, not exactly little. But then again, the oldest student I have is 8 years younger than I am.

Damn I'm old.

Pai Ka

Accompanied Jessie in the afternoon to Sim Lim to get her laptop adapter replaced, and was laughed by her for being pai ka!

After that we walked around and noticed a few beautiful laptop skins, and intend to go back there on Friday with our laptops to get them sticked.




As you guys can see, its all red in the black circle. Nope, that's not a mosquito bite. I presume that's some bruising or internal bleeding from the injury I had on Sunday.

Initially it didn't hurt, and I carried on playing for 2 more hours. After that, went to Grandma's house, and started to limp abit. Reached home, swollen and limping. Up till now, it hasn't got better a single bit.

Too bad, I can't go see a doctor at this moment, when I'm supposed to prepare for my exams.

Thus, bear with the pain! Time to go back and revise for my paper tomorrow. Good luck to all my classmates taking the paper!

Injured ... Again

Damn.

Somehow I must get injured every Sunday after the soccer session. This time round, I crashed my left foot into another guy's shin, and *crack!* I heard something in my left foot crack.

Now, it bloody hurts!

Luckily, there is no teaching for me tomorrow, and therefore I don't have to spend 3 hours standing wearing leather shoes! Wonder if I should go see a doctor and check if there is any broken bone or something. But then, I've got to prepare for exams!

Having exams next week! This is probably the first time that I'm setting a target for myself in an examination, because of the promise that I gave to my grandmother. I told her for my degree, there are many different levels, and the 1st Class Honours is the top, and I told her that I will get that certificate for her.

Score As for all my papers! Once all my papers are over, I can then start to find jobs! Or projects to do!

Oops

Not been blogging for quite a few days already.

Hope everyone had a good holiday! Bet many people out there took leave/off on Friday to enjoy a 4 day long weekend!

Have been drinking a bit recently, hoping that I could 借酒消愁.

And I find it stupid. Because it doesn't work.

People say that when you breakup, it takes time before you forget the pain and get on with life. But for me, it's weird because I do get on with life, but the pain just gets worse day by day. I just keep thinking of her all the time.

But I do know that she has her own life now, and I'm nobody to interrupt into it. And I'm not going to do so either.

All I want to do now, is to get good grades for my coming exams, and then carry on earning money and finish off all the things that I've not completed, including Mr Quek's website, and finding a web host for her company's website.

And all I can hope for is that eventually, no matter how long it takes, that she will see the change in me, and give me another chance to start all over again. Whether is it months or years.

To Sheena, Luke, Jessie, Kev, Cindy, Marcus, Wanhua (Sorry if I missed out anyone. Too many to mention):
It's been great being friends with you guys for so many years. You guys are really best of friends. It's my own fault and own loss that I've lost you guys, and I wish you all the best in all your future endeavours. Hope that in the future, if there is a chance for me, that I will reappear in this group again. With her.


Something good though

Another Ghost Sighting

At some building in the West.



Again, real or not? Decide for yourself.

My New Hairstyle

New hairstyle!

Real Or Not?

Real? Or just another video editing prank?

You decide for yourself.

Story:
This is a CCTV footage captured in a building in Raffles Place. Look at the end of the clip, and you will notice that a ghostly figure appears in the lift while the 2 guys are leaving it.

Scolding

Just scolded my class for being late. 25 minutes to be exact.

But come to think of it, the person to blame should be the teacher.

This is a Secondary 1 class, and because of that, they enforce this rule that no matter which lab or classroom that they are supposed to go to next, they have to wait in their own classroom and wait for the teacher to bring them there. This is to ensure that they do not make too noise when they travel along the corridors, and to make sure that they stay in line.

But this morning, one of the teachers is absent, while the other is late. And because of that, the class stayed in their own classroom, while one of the boys went to look for the other teacher. After searching in vain, the other teacher just suddenly appeared at the computer lab which I'm supposed to teach in.

To make things worse, the lab technical assistant was still not here yet, and thus the teacher had to make another trip to the general office and draw the key to open the lab. I can't draw the key because I'm not a staff of the school, and even if I could I wouldn't be able to open the door because they needed to scan the staff pass before the door opens.

So I shouldn't blame the students for being late. They were just following the school rules, and they also made the effort to go and look for the teacher in order for her to bring the class to the lab.

But the students still got a scolding from me, because they just do not know how pressed for time they are. They are required to do an animation of at least 3 minutes using Macromedia Flash, and it is not going to be easy. It will definitely take up a lot of time, judging on their proficiency in the program.

But instead of immediately settling down and get down to doing their animations, they ran around the lab and each student went to switch off the computer of another student, thus even wasting more time.

I guess they are still young, and are playful.

I understand the rule that the school enforced is to ensure discipline. But if that's the case, shouldn't the teachers know that they should be there early in class, or at least on time, so that they can bring their students to the next class?

Maybe the way of teaching in a secondary school has changed drastically as compared to the days when I was in GreenRidge, 11 years ago.

I still like the old way though. I'm old fashioned lol.

Pain

Ankles are still hurting like crap. Even after going for 针灸, it still doesn't help. And I'm going for soccer later -_-||


Had a conversation with someone last night, and I must thank him for giving me all the harsh and cold facts.

I know that for the past 4 years, I've had a great girlfriend in Cheryl. And I know that I am the only one to blame for losing her. Yes, I lied in order to avoid conflicts, and sadly she found out about it. Yes, it wasn't only once. It was an accumulation of events that led her to feel a sense of betrayal, and it's all my fault.

I would just like to say that no matter what I do, I do it because I love her, and because I need her. But it's just so ironic that it is exactly because of this, that's why I lied, and that's why we broke up.

Even if the whole world is against me or doesn't believe in me, I'll still do what I'm doing now. Changing to be a better man.

But to regain her trust is extremely tough. Not to say regain her love. But that doesn't mean that I will give up. I will prove to everyone who didn't have faith in me, that I will be someone better. Even if there is only a 0.00000001% chance that she will trust me and fall in love with me again, I will still try. The reason is simple.

I love her. A lot. 100%.

For now, I wish that I have people who support me, and trust that I can be a better man.

I really love her, and all I want is to regain her trust and her love. It's 2 weeks, and it already feels like 20 years. The pain in my heart is getting worse and worse, and it just doesn't seem to go away. Even my ankle pain pales in comparison to it.

Please, people. Trust me, and support me. But even if there's no one who does, I will still do it.

Stupid Me

Firstly, got my right ankle injured on Sunday while playing soccer. Then, to prevent it from getting even worse (it was already swollen), I twisted my left ankle.

And then yesterday, I stupidly went to play badminton. I actually forgot that both my ankles were injured, and carried on playing. It got even more painful.

And now, both ankles are so damn painful, even though I can still walk without limping. Can't put too much pressure on either side. My right ankle feels swollen-ish, while my left ankle has a crack sound whenever I put pressure on it.

Luckily I can still drive. I just have to shift my entire right leg to step on the pedals instead of shifting my foot only.

It makes things worse that I have to wear formally every morning from Monday to Thursday, and the leather shoe is so damn hard! And I can't possibly bandage both ankles, and go teach in formal wear, but wearing a pair of sandals. That will look so ... stupid. I don't think either the school or the agency will allow me to do so.

Guess I'll just have to bear with it. Rub it myself every day. Save money.

I should go buy bandage now, since there is nothing on for me tomorrow.


Morale of the story:
- Do not ask people out for sporting session when you yourself is injured.
- Do not forget that you are injured.


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All these are done because I need to do something to stop 胡思乱想-ing.

But it just doesn't seem to work.

I must succeed!!!

Do The Test

I'll Cry Myself For Sleep

Heard this song on Yes 933, and went to search for it.

Until now I still don't know if the song name or the lyrics are right.


Rita Calypso: I'll Cry Myself For Sleep

I thought that you would never leave me
You said that we were never apart
But now you are gone and I'm all alone here
with nothing but a broken heart

And so I cry myself to sleep
cry myself to sleep
cry myself to sleep over you

So many little things you told me
made me suppose you really care
I can't believe you could leave them
not after all the love we share

And so I cry myself to sleep
cry myself to sleep
cry myself to sleep over you

Every night I want to hold you tight
Once again to try to ease the pain
Sometimes I wished that we've never met
There are so many things I'm trying so hard to forget

But if you find an excuse to leave me
If you should want me back again
You know that I shall always love you
But oh my darling until then

I'm gonna cry myself to sleep
cry myself to sleep
cry myself to sleep over you
over you
what else can I do
I'll cry over you,over you,over you...


Well the lyrics say almost everything that I feel. Except that I never wished that we've never met. In fact I thank every almighty being for letting me meet you. And no, I'm not trying to forget anything. And I won't too.

Another Weird Dream

Seems like I'm having a lot of weird dreams lately.

This time, I ended up at her house. I don't know why, but I just did. And she allowed me in.

She had a state-of-the-art computer lab, in which there were many kids playing computer games. I then joined the kids in playing the games.

They suddenly disappeared.

Only she and I were left in the room.

I asked for a hug, because it's been a long time since I did that. I really miss her alot.

She hugged, but only for 1 second, because her mom came back.

But, it wasn't her mom. It was my grandmother.

She then walked briskly into her room, and it's just me and her in the computer lab again.

...

My phone alarm rang.

Weird dream.

I really miss the 2 of them. Both of them used to be the 2 most important people in my life, and they will continue to be. Forever.

Bad Dream

Had a bad dream last night. Dreamt that I crashed into a car while driving. Twice.

The first one was a mild accident, and the weird thing was that the other party did not stop. He just drove off even though I was the one who crashed into him and wanted to pay him compensation.

The second one was bad. I banged into a trailer, got stuck in the car, both the trailer and my car exploded, and the next thing I knew I was in the hospital. Badly injured.

And hoping to see one person.

But it didn't happen. And I cried, while sleeping.

Do you guys cry while sleeping? You actually know that you're crying because of your dream, and yet you still allow it to happen, and you just keep your eyes closed and hope that you can go back to sleep again. It's just like when your leg suddenly has a cramp while you sleep. You just bear with the pain, but not open your eyes, hoping that the pain will slowly go away and you get back to sleep again.

I cried. And I dozed off.

And I don't remember what my second dream was. Maybe there wasn't one.

I wasn't even speeding in my dream! I was just driving at 60km/h, but it was on a really packed road. I could even remember that the first car which I crashed into in the first accident is a yellow Volkswagen Beetle. No license plate of course.

Hope it ain't a premonition of what's about to happen to me.


P.S. Happy 21st Birthday Esther. Sorry I can't make it for your party today. Hope you all have fun!